Nevertheless, we find that our thinking will, as time passes, be more and more on the plane of inspiration. We come to rely upon it. Page 87
I am so thankful for the specific help that AA gives me in living a sober life. I have actually come to rely on the inspiration, or direction if you will, that God gives me. There’s nothing ‘woo woo’ about it. It’s just that I try to be conscious of God’s promptings.
Bill continues, We usually conclude the period of meditation with a prayer that we be shown all through the day what our next step is to be, that we be given whatever we need to take care of such problems. For years, I’ve prayed for wisdom and since I’ve been following the AA program of recovery, I finally feel like I have what it takes to be in His will. I think that’s the definition of the kind of wisdom that I needed.
I can’t explain yet what happened that aligned me with God’s presence and a sense of peace. As I stated, I had no working definition of serenity when I fell into the program. In fact, when I asked about it, I was told that I had not been sober long enough to know what it meant! OK. That statement is one of those things that made me mad enough to stay around and discover it for myself! I took a look at the woman who said it and thought, if you can do this then so can I! Maybe not the healthiest response, but it worked.
We ask especially for freedom from self-will, and are careful to make no request for ourselves only. We may ask for ourselves, however, if others will be helped. We are careful never to pray for our own selfish ends. Many of us have wasted a lot of time doing that and it doesn’t work. You can easily see why. Page 87, AA.
I have a natural bend towards selfishness and I really do need God’s wisdom to live this life. I am not spending precious prayer time talking to God about how life should go, what He should do for me or others. I spend it quietly…listening. I use the 3rd Step prayer a lot.