My addiction started harmlessly.
AA Old Timer helped me see that I need to add some ‘fluff’ to my life
Addicts who are still using or drinking naturally create a life of chaos for themselves and others. Relationships narrow into a posture of defensiveness, wariness and life itself takes on […]
There’s a ‘Love Detector’ application for my smart phone. It took 20 seconds to have it downloaded and ready to use. A red screen appears and asks, “Are you in […]
How do you feel about being an addict, co-dependent or having cancer? I’ve been asking this question and my favorite answer so far is below. Even though this dear friend […]
I remember the movie and I remember the incredibly sad scene where Jenny lies dying in the hospital. Then the encounter with Oliver and his father where he quotes Jenny and says, Love means never having to say you’re sorry. Does it?
When new to recovery it is a good idea to locate some trusted friends. The kind that will not hesitate to call us on our self-absorption, our rationalizing attitudes and […]
Can I even think my way out of a paper bag? Nope.
What I wanted was for God to solve my unhappiness. When that didn’t happen I did a number of things that made me feel worse!
I was deceived by the Little Engine That Could!
When I was little there was a book and a song about the Little Engine That Could. I realize the intent was to eliminate negative self-talk. But AA has taught […]
* Suddenly, I want to contact people from my past. I’m 57. Looking back on my early years, I know enough now to realize that I must have been very […]
In the Summer of 2008 I was sitting in a chapel beside a stain glass window that shed golden tones over my face, my hair and my hands clasped in […]
B. You accept who you are by beginning to find your unique self Yesterday we looked at some questions to help us learn a bit more about our unique identity. […]
What do you want to be remembered for when you die?
My son has owned an independent trucking business for several years. He started it before GPS was commonly available. Knowing I struggle with navigation, he gave me a piece of […]
I have voluntarily given my liberty to God. I am not going to voluntarily give that liberty to anyone else ever again. I tried that and inevitably it led to […]
Our homes have been battle grounds many an evening. ~ AA p 105 As I stated previously, besides being an alcoholic in recovery, I am a survivor of abuse. Therefore, […]
Is he not a victim of the delusion that he can wrest satisfaction and happiness out of this world if he only manages well? Is it not evident to all […]
Welcome to life with an alcoholic! Life with a dry (not sober) alcoholic is a challenge. I should know, I’m a recovering alcoholic and I’m still a challenge. Before I […]
If his arrangements would only stay put, if only people would do as he wishes, the show would be great. Everybody, including himself, would be pleased. Life would be wonderful. […]
Lies and deceitful games have nothing to do with the shared reality and richness of intimacy. True intimacy in relationships is reserved for people who are determined to hear and […]
In the previous post, I compared heat in bread making to honest communication in relationships. The yeast could be comparable to love and commitment. Without the right amount of heat, […]
I never made a lot of bread until I got a machine to knead it for me because I have very weak arms. It is not fun to knead bread […]
I love to make bread. If it didn’t stick to my belly, I’d bake all the time.
I then did what any self-respecting mom would do. I called the kid.
If I wanted to stay angry with myself and hostile to those around me, I could have just kept drinking.
When I was drinking I drank to feel better. The trouble with that is: I could never just take one drink and be happy. Normal social drinkers can do that. […]
At first, I thought of really cutting and accurate remarks that I could make to her in my defense and then I surprised myself by realizing that I don’t want to do that.
I realize now that picking up a drink isn’t where the relapse starts.
Only after forgiving myself and others, can I begin to accept everyone else.
My disease was so hidden that even I didn’t know about it!